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GOODBYE

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 14:09:14 GMT

Well i guess i can no longer have you lovely journal. For reasons i cannont say i must end my shor week that i have had you. Your too much of a burden on my life and i need to move on.

my ass hurts

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 17:09:47 GMT

well i have a confession i really dont go to the group fitness things i tell my mom. Only casue she doesnt gets as worried. As appose to running for an hour. Well i did that today. 40 minutes on the elliptical and 15 on the treadmill. I always go up to 15 max incline and 4.6 speed and hold on and walk. It burns major calories and firms your legs and butt. You actually can burn more cals that way than running.

Total calories burned 520+147=667

dont binge not fuck up! thats my inner motivation.

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 15:11:45 GMT

You scored as Goddess of the Golden Dawn. You come from heaven. You wake people from their sleep. Your purity is unlike any other, nor is your beauty. By the way, nice wings!

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Goddess of the Golden Dawn

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40%

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Chicago

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 15:01:25 GMT

Im going to see the musical Chicago today. This morning i am going to body combat at 9(its like kick boxing but not) than at 11 my mom and i leave. WE are going out for Sushi so i can eat low cal there usually i get the soy beans and Squid salad. or a the tuna. Yesterday was alright. I told my self i wasnt going to purge and eat really good so that i wouldnt....nope it didnt work out like that. Its like i have to be busy casue if i just sit around i get all hungry. So i think later today i am going to get some beads and start back on my beading. That will keep my mind off it. I mean homework is all fun and stuff but really i am tired of homework.

throwing up

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 05:26:47 GMT

i really hate how i feel after i throw up but do it I mean i know its sad and not good but sometimes i love the idea of a good binge and knowing that i have the ability to get rid of it while others suffer threw there full stomachs

I get some powerful feeling when it throw up....yet after i feel powerless

funny how that works

waited

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 22:14:50 GMT

So i was bad. I thought i was doing do good i ate just a salad with mostly veggies and a few bits of Chicken. Well my mom showed me that she bought my favorite cookies. There called Me-Del there really good chocolate cookies no tran fat or hydron oil stuff just under 150 for 5 of them. But i ate way to many and than honey roasted peanuts to fig bars and 3 rice cakes. I needed to rid it of my body but my mom was still here. I think luck was on my side. My mom ran out of stamps and she needed them to mail her bills. So she left to do that which gave me a nice 10 minute gap to purge. and i did. But my throat hurts casue rice cakes and peanuts hurt. Later today i have to take me kitty to the vet for shots. hopefully he is good my mom is going out to dinner with her frinds at 5:30 so when i come back i will wait till she leaves and than go to gym and work out.

wasnt motivated

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 16:31:37 GMT

I didn't work out yesterday. I hate how un productive you feel when you don't work out. But today i got up early and burned i think about 530 calories in the elliptical i was on it for 40 minutes. Later today if i have time i will swing by the gym at my school (i break up from my gym to my schools gym) and work out. Or if i am not to tired later tonight go the my gym cause diff ppl are there after 5 and i feel weird going twice in the same day with the same ppl seeing me. so far i had a but of sugar free Jello and few bites of cottage cheese. I like how after working out i am not as hungry.

oh man

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 14:11:58 GMT

well yesterday i worked out twice in the same day and felt pretty good. Today after my observaiton at my school i will go the gym from like 11:30-1 ish and than come home shower look like i am eating something than leave for school for mt 4:15 class that goes to 6:45.

school day

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 20:33:53 GMT

today i am at the U for like ever. I left at 8:30 and ate an apple(80) and half of a ultra yogurt(40( from yoplait. Later i had some ham and low fat swiss (75cal) than a salad with alot of veggies that i will say is about 150 calories i think it was less than that but i am not sure. I would work out at the gym here but it gets to packed and my ipod battery died and i need music to run there cause too many men making grunting nosies its annoying. So for now i am just killing time on the PC trying not to eat anymore.

But yesterday was horrible.

I went out to dinner with my friend and i was really good i had salmon and veggies but i have to have 3 beers. UGh i had to pee reall bad on the way back so i stopped by the mall....Food court. I dont know what came over me but a huge urge to just to eat everything i could think of. Big cinnabun, pretzel,, Blizzard and candy i felt like total fatness so i went into the bathroom at the mall. Now the bathrooms in my mall have all the way walls so no one can see your feet. So i purged it all. all of it. than i got home and had more crap that i shouldnt have but i run a bath at night and well you know( so i was safe but not very happy). So it was bad yesterday my throat is hurting. So today i have my massive gum supply and soda. casue i wont get home till 7ish and i have to be here for like 5 more hours.

got dinner figured out

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 00:24:23 GMT

i told my mom i wanted the meatless meatballs instead of the sausage the sausgae has 190 calories and 6 of the meatballs have 140 so im having that with sauce and collard greens. I just have to make sure i have a sugar free popsicle and not ice cream.

way to confident

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 22:58:26 GMT

I really was risky today with my food. Well i was really worked and worked out till i burned about 520 calories

i had
My famous Tuna salad that only has 150calories
I was doing good till
2 fig bars total 260
2 otameal cookie 100
soy crisps 45
puffins bar 140
ceral 110
like 850 calories in like less than 45 minutes

i know right i totally binged and i knew it was bad so i told my mom was going to clean my bathroom. this gave me the excuse to run my bath and fan so i purged it all up. I did it within time allowed too so it wont stay with me. yet my stomach has been hurting lately like gassy and kinda irritated. I dunno whats up with it but i dont like. so yeah that was my day i have to figure out a way to get out of dinner. See living at home is hard casue you cant avoid dinner and i already told my mom i would help cook it so i cant make an excuse to leave for a bit. But the game i on so maybe if i use the napkin trick it will work. I have done it before. oh my. At least this next week all my classes go till like 6:30 and am not home till 7ish so i usually tell my mom i ate before class (that starts at 4:30) so usually i can get her off my case i have some jello or a popsicle. I just have to stop myself from binging when i start having a little this a little that it really gets it going.

fajitas why

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 15:45:13 GMT

Why are they so damn good

I had shrip fajitias but i ate moslty the onions and a bit of shrimp some grilled zuccini and a little guac. I think i stayed low on the calories i am not sure how many calories are in it but im giving myself 300 than for dessert...god its hard to not want it. I had three sugar free popsicles and a 100 cal snack pack so overall i had about 500 for the night which was okay casue i worked out alot yesterday and i like compensated for the calories i ate. today i am going to work out alot harder to burn off that extra i ate last night.

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 20:02:43 GMT

Lunch
Salad 110 cals
Cheese 70 cals
3 slices of ham 30 cals
10 soy crisps about 40 cals
half a cookie 25 cals

345 for lunch man that sure doesnt seem like alot that i ate but really adds up

Gym

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 18:42:30 GMT

I worked out for a bit burned total of 555 calories

so far i have had about 30 grapes
a bit of a Slim Fast low Carb breakfast bar 75calories

I went online to this site http://channels.netscape.com/ns/living/diet.jsp and if i consume- 1,189 calories a day i cna safetly loose 4 pounds (105 is the plan) in four weeks. So i have a bit to go but its good estimate for my max amount of calories i can have in a day. Oh and as far as working out is says "By adding a brisk, 20-minute walk (4.5 mph) 3 times a week you could lose the weight in: 3 weeks" So if i work out everyday for like an hour and make sure i burn at lest 500 each time ill should loose it much faster ;) i am trying now not to vomit so much i really am getting tired of it. I mean ill even do it as school and let me tell ya its hard finding a bathroom on comapus that is a single only. Neway i think my family gets a little suspicous (i know i still live at home) when after meals i take a shower. but it only casue i have to get up early and i cant wash my hair and stuff than. So by working out more i will have less of an urge to purge....that sounds werid. Neway i am suppose to meet my friend later this evening for dinner. Than god for Applebees and their point menu. Every 2 points is 100 calories. so it makes it very easy to eat there. I just have to be careful casue i love beer. So i stick to miller lite (95cals) or Rum and Diet cokes with lime (about80cals)

Hi1

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 16:40:54 GMT

Hello everyone my name is Kari(Carrie) i am 23 years I know im kinda old.I have been bulmic for about 3 years, more so no than ever it has been really bad. I feel very alone at times about it. It such a hard thing to stop. I love LJs and i love commiunitys like this i mean who need therapy when you have friends to support you.
Name:Kari
Age:23
Height:5'4
Cw:108
Lw:102
Hw:120
STG:105
LTG:103+104
BMI: 18.5 but i want it at 17

also this a really good link that tells you how many calories you need to eat to get a certain wight. it really cool http://channels.netscape.com/ns/living/diet.jsp

I cant wait to meet you all and start relationships